It's a question I've been asking myself lately--Am I where I'm supposed to be? And that question is quickly followed by another--Am I doing what I'm supposed to be doing?
At a recent dinner with some friends from church, I explained that my daughter and her husband were saving every penny they could for a mission trip to Haiti. From the first time they heard about their church's efforts in that country, they were moved to participate. A garage sale, selling cookies and halting all drives through the fast food lanes have netted some of the necessary funds. But it was the generous donations from friends and church members that have boosted their Haiti funds to the halfway point. It has been an amazing journey and I'm excited for them.
But I don't understand them.
Or rather, I don't understand their deep desire to travel to other countries to spread God's Word. But they are not the only family members who have been called to this work. For the last three summers, my youngest sister has traveled to dangerous parts of Panama to minister to villages that have never seen someone with blond hair like hers. My college-aged niece has made several trips to Africa over the last several summers. Her joy in serving has spread to her father and he has joined her the last two years. This summer my middle sister is joining them along with the rest of their family. Again, I'm very excited for them all, but . . .
Is there something wrong with me that I have absolutely no desire to do this? Why don't I feel moved to participate and join in these ministries? After all, isn't this at the very heart of the Great Commission delivered by Christ?
This past week I turned to a passage in Sarah Young's book, " Jesus Calling". The words must have been written with me in mind:
You are on the path of My choosing. There is no randomness about your life. Here and Now comprise the coordinates of your daily life.
It occurred to me that I am doing what God has called me to do--writing. This is not a desire that He has placed in my daughter's heart, my niece's heart or my sisters' hearts. If He has chosen to place it within me, then it is no less noble a cause than missionary work.
My job is to spread God's Word in a different way. And this journey has given me more joy than anything I have ever done. Somehow I think that inner peace is a sign that I am on the right path--the one of His choosing.
"I ask--ask the God of our Master, Jesus Christ, the God of glory--to make you intelligent and discerning in knowing him personally, your eyes focused and clear, so that you can see exactly what it is he is calling you to do." Ephesians 1:17-18 MSG
Are you where you are supposed to be?
Next week: Max Lucado helps me out!